The Competition

Today, I woke up not feeling like my best self. Ladies, you know those days when you wake up and everything is just out of whack and all you really want to do is go back to bed and try to start again?

Today was one of those days. Nothing was right. I didn't like the clothes I wore to work, I didn't like the shoes I had on my feet, my bag just felt so blase and to top it off, I was not feeling well. But of course, I had to get it together and go into work. The bright side of all of this; I had some earrings and my hair is still fresh after 3 weeks (Shout out to Nikki's Natural Hairapy!!)

Fast forward to arriving to work. There was drama on top of more drama and it just made me so frustrated, but of course as ladies have to keep our cool, cause otherwise you know we look hysterical. And constantly told to calm down 😒. By the time my work day was complete, I just felt so beat down and still not feeling myself.

On the way home, I started chatting with my sister and eventually she asked me some things about being The Thick Queen. I'm sorry to say my answer was not quite positive.

I told her the truth. I was not happy with myself today and I did not have any of my usual confidence. I was very harsh with myself, very judgmental and debated whether or not all of this was worth it. I started thinking whether I was doing the right thing with pushing a message of self confidence and self care or was I doing the wrong thing by enabling people to not care for themselves and give them an excuse to be unhealthy?

I didn't care for myself the way that I was today and I thought I was just destined to be fat and never get to a place of optimum health for myself. I went right to the negative. I decided to dig my feet into it too!

Yes ladies, I still have self doubt. Sometimes I want to go back and do another fad diet that I know it won't work just to lose a couple pounds, sometimes I get caught up in all of the media suggested sizes for women, and we all know Facebook and Instagram read your thoughts so I've seen multiple advertisements for shaperwear and the next detox tea that's coming down the line.

The temptation has been heavy!

My sister pulled me right out the Rabbit Hole and gave me a dose of reality by reminding me of why I am The Thick Queen. Here's what she said;

"Sister you look good, you own your body. You know how to dress, you're confident, and ooze sex appeal. Always have, but I've noticed the maturity in your beauty and girl you simply rock it."

After reading that, I remembered 2 things;

1) I am My Only Competition!
2) Brother Malcolm asking who taught us to hate what God made us!

This put me right back on track. It also reinforced my initial thoughts that I am doing the right thing. Our sisters need to be uplifted, on the good days and the bad and also on the in-between days. And sometimes that's a easy fix by rocking a t-shirt, a sweatshirt or hoodie or carrying a makeup kit that reminds you that you are Beautiful and Worthy just the way You are.

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